Just A Mom Trying

I’m being honest: the last few weeks have been a battle. I’d sit down, open my notebook, and then just… lose all motivation. The ideas are there, but the energy to actually build the thought is completely gone.

And here’s why that hits hard: when that creative drive disappears, it doesn’t just affect my writing. It affects my ability to show up fully as a mom.

It’s a draining feeling, and not only do I feel like I’m not fully showing up for my kids, but myself as well. The daily battle of constantly being needed every 2 minutes and not being able to complete a thought for myself is definitely a battle I’m sure many mothers face. I love my kids and will always do what I can to make sure they are taken care of, happy, and healthy. But the feeling of dread is still there.

And honestly, handling the constant fits, meltdowns, and fighting all day leaves me feeling completely overstimulated—like my brain just hit a wall of static. I know I desperately need a break, but then I’m instantly crippled by the guilt of taking that time for myself.

So instead of taking the break I need, I lose my temper, get grumpy, and continue with completing everyone’s demands. Because that’s what we do right? Show up and continue on because we are supposed to be this perfect wife, mother, woman. Apparently it’s a weakness to show struggle or any lack of enjoyment in our motherhood journey.

However, I will work through this and get back to my regular posting for y’all.
I am truly sorry for the silence lately. Thank you for sticking around while I get through this wall.

Is anyone else feeling down lately? I know I can’t be the only one hitting this wall. Let me know in the comments below.